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I saw this and it sounds like a really good idea. Now I know we’re now 27 days into the year, but I’ve had a bit of a difficult time so far this year…Yes, already!! So, getting a late start but starting today, Sunday, January 27th, I will get a small pretty box or jar and write down each time something good happens. And honestly, it doesn’t matter how small or insignificant it is. A small victory is still a victory, a tiny moment of happiness still a moment of happiness. They all add up. It’s something to work for. I need positive things in my life. I need these good moments that put a smile on my face. It’s important. Everyone does. I urge all of you to participate in this project. Bring some joy into your life. Celebrate each good thing that happens to you, no matter how big or small. And you can choose to share this with everyone, a select few, or just keep it special for yourself. Just don’t let those who are negative tell you it’s a stupid idea or a waste of time. These are people who fail to find the small joys in life, and that’s a sad way to live. I look forward to the end of the year and reading the many happy events that are sure to occur in the months ahead!
So, I accomplished a goal. I completed my first half marathon. And I did great. And I’ve been doing great lately. But sometimes things don’t always stay on the upside…
After the Rock n Roll Half Marathon, my feet were bothering me a bit. Especially my left foot. Of course, I just ran/walked 13.1 miles. They were bound to be a bit uncomfortable.
Now fast forward to Thursday, when I was contemplating going to the emergency room because my left foot hurt so bad when I walked. Called my podiatrist, they got me in first thing Friday morning.
Turns out I have a stress fracture in 2 places on my left foot. I’m in a walking boot for at least 3 weeks, possibly longer. I have to stay off my feet, sleep with my foot elevated, and who knows when I’ll be able to return back to running. I left the office in tears.
Needless to say, I did not run the Bay Days 8k on Sunday. And I won’t be running the Komen Race for the Cure next month.
I’m supposed to be training for my half marathon that’s in March. Luckily, I will have enough time to heal. But what to do until then? How to keep the weight off? In fact, how to lose the weight? I’ve already gained 2 lbs from last week’s inactivity and not being careful enough about what I was eating.
Everyone tells me to be patient. In fact, I’ve been told “welcome to the sport of patience”. Well, that’s fine. I can learn to be patient.
I can also be quite determined. I’m not a quitter. I’m not ready to sit back for 3 weeks or longer and do nothing. Let my training plan fall away. Gain back the weight that I’ve lost. Go back to square one. I’ve allowed myself to be upset for a few days. Fine. I’ve done my 3 days of depression. Now it’s time to get active, take charge of this issue, and find alternatives to running and walking for my training plan.
At the moment, I have no access to a pool. So swimming is out. I can’t afford to reinstate my gym membership. If I could, that would have been the first thing I would have done. I would have access to a pool and a stationary bike. But the funds aren’t there. And no, I cannot ask family members for help. So, I have to find another way.
I have posted on Facebook, reaching out to friends and family asking everyone if they have a bike I can borrow for the next few weeks. So far, no one does. I have posted on Freecycle looking for a bike. So far, nothing. I’ve posted on different communities asking if anyone knows of different workouts I could do. So far, just people who sympathize with me, wish me luck and a speedy recovery. But I’m determined.
I will not sit around doing nothing. I will figure out a way to keep working out, keep training and keep losing the weight. I won’t stop reading up on running just because it’s not something I’m doing anymore. I won’t let it get me down and depress me. I’ll use this time to do research. I’ll start focusing more on nutrition and what I put into my body.
But I definitely need support from my friends and family. Please, if anyone can think of anything to help, let me know.
I’m a few days late but yes, I finished the Rock n Roll Half Marathon in Virginia Beach on Sunday!! My first half marathon! I still can’t believe it! I actually finished a half marathon. 13.1 miles! Amazing!
My finishing time was 3:34:26, with an average pace of 16:22. And that was WITH the long bathroom break (there was a super long line). I had expected to finish closer to 4 hours so I’m really happy with that time. Especially for it being my first half marathon. The first mile was about a 14 min mile. So without that bathroom break, I could have finished sooner!
The race started off great because I got to see my daughter Alana and her teammate with Team Hoyt, Ryan take off. That just made my day! Then during the race, I received a notification on my phone from Facebook from my friend Wendy who had posted on my page “you’re amazing in every way possible and don’t ever forget that. Love you!” and that just brought tears to my eyes and made me even more motivated to continue on. I swear, the amount of love and support I have gotten from people on Facebook and Livejournal and on my blog is wonderful.
I’m just so happy and so proud of myself. This was a huge goal and I accomplished it. And before I turned 30! I just feel amazing! Crossing that finish line was an incredible feeling I will never forget. I almost feel like I can do anything. It has made me feel so much better about myself. I am feeling positive and ready to take on the world!
I’ve gone from my first race to a half marathon in 9 months. And I started out at 220 lbs. I’m now 178. I still have a long way to go with my weight AND my running and life in general, but for a person who started the year out at getting sore just walking a mile to walking and running a half marathon and losing weight, that’s pretty awesome. I’m very proud of what I’ve accomplished.
To anyone who reads this and is surrounded by people who are negative and tell you you can’t do something, don’t listen to them. And don’t ever tell yourself that you can’t. You can change your life, you can make a goal and accomplish it. Whether it’s a small goal or a big goal, you can do whatever you set your mind to do. If the people around you are negative, surround yourself with different people. Or be your own support system.
I have an 8k this weekend in Downtown Hampton. My feet are still pretty sore, so we’ll see how I do with that. And after the 8k, it’s back to kicking butt on the Shamrock training!
I now have 3 more days until my first half marathon!
Yesterday it hit me all at once, and I suddenly became really nervous. These weren’t the usual pre-race nerves. These were “FIRST HALF MARATHON…YES, THAT MEANS 13.1 MILES!!” nerves. I was shaky, my stomach was in knots. I just felt awful.
I managed to calm myself down, though. I’m back to being excited again.
I just want to not worry, not freak out. I want to relax and enjoy the experience of my first half marathon. There’s nothing to freak out over. Nothing to be nervous about. I’m not going for a time goal. My goal is to finish in the 4 hour time limit. And I could do that just walking. Which I’ll be doing more than walking some of the time.
I’m not racing against anyone. I’m not even racing against myself. This is my first half marathon. I have no time to beat. I just want to prove to myself that I can do it.
And I’ve had so many words of encouragement and really awesome things from people. I know I have the love and support of people behind me, and with that, I know I can do this. I have nothing to worry about. I’ve had people tell me that because of what I’m doing, I’ve inspired them to become more active and start running. That’s amazing to me. I’m inspiring other people. And that inspires and motivates me to continue to do this and push myself and go farther.
People may not realize it or even believe it, but running and completing these races has been a life changing experience for me. And it’s not even done yet. I honestly believe finishing this half marathon will change something in me.
I only wish my mom was alive and well to experience all this with me. She would be my biggest supporter, my biggest cheerleader. I know that she would, without a doubt, be at every race, cheering me on without me even asking her to. She would listen to me talk endlessly about it. She would be just as excited about things as I am. She would calm me down when I’m nervous. And she would always, always let me know how proud of me she was. I know I could count on her for that. But that’s how my mom was or would have been. Maybe dads just aren’t like that. I don’t know. Or maybe it’s just mine. I just know I miss my mom right now more than ever.
But I’m almost 30. Old enough to be proud of myself. To be my own cheerleader. To be my own biggest supporter. To calm myself down. And I write in my journal endlessly about these things.
3 more days. And I’ll be a half marathon momma!
Yes, this is a shocking announcement, even to myself.
At the expo for the Rock N Roll Half Marathon, I will be upgrading to the Half Marathon. So instead of doing 3.1 miles in 2 weeks, I’ll be doing 13.1.
Am I crazy? Probably.
See, here’s the thing. Shaine and I were planning on doing the 2 person relay for the half marathon. She would do the 7.9 miles and I would finish and do the 5.2. Well, turns out, they don’t allow half marathon registrations to be transferred to relay. So…something in the back of my mind dared me to do it. I don’t know, maybe I just got a little brave. Maybe I was just feeling really good and motivated at the time. Still am. So, apparently my first half marathon will be a lot sooner than the Shamrock. My first half marathon will be before I turn 30. Which was a thought that occurred to me after I decided to do it.
We’re going on a long run today so we’ll see how that goes. Somehow I feel like I’m ready for this. Like it’ll be okay. Like I’m up for the challenge. Or maybe that I just need this challenge. Whatever it is, I hope I have everyone’s support. I hope at least someone will be there for me cheering me on.
Yesterday was the 26th. So exactly 4 months from yesterday, I’ll be 30 years old. Yep, it’s the final countdown…*cue Europe singing in the background*
So, those close to me knows I’ve been going in and out of a quarter life crisis. This finding myself, losing myself, finding myself battle, going back and forth. It’s exhausting. It really is. After talking with some friends, I find that I’m not the only one who’s gone through this quarter life crisis, so I’m in good company, really. But they’ve already gone through it. How do I get through it? My situation is a bit different.
Along with that, I was reading a book I got from the library yesterday by Bob Greene called “The Life You Want”. He talks about how losing weight isn’t just physical. It’s also an emotional, psychological process. It really does take a lot more than just “workout and don’t eat junk”. Especially if you want to stick with it.
There are so many things in my life I can’t control and that’s frustrating. And it’s not just trying to make my body do things it’s not ready to do. It’s certain people in my life and how they act and how they treat me. It’s being able to do things like get a job. You can only put in the applications and resumes. You can’t make a company give you a job. You can’t control a 9 year old, no matter how much bribing and pleading you do with her. You just can’t control many situations in life. You just have to control how you react to them and hope it all works out for the best. And worry about the things you can control.
I’m probably going to start getting a little more personal with my writing. Mom Is Gonna Run isn’t just about running anymore. It’s about so much more than that.
It’s been over a month since I’ve updated, very sad to say.
Can’t say things have been great. Can’t say they’ve been terrible either. Went on vacation to the Outer Banks. That was fun. And that was the highlight of the past month.
Everything else has been…eh. I’ve been slacking off pretty bad on my workouts. I haven’t been to the trail at all since Lola got out of school a month ago. I’ve barely used the treadmill. I’ve hit the pavement once. Just once. And that was 4 miles. I seemed to have lost motivation.
Yesterday, I gave myself a kick in the butt. I registered for a 5k that’s on August 4th. That’s right, only 2.5 weeks away. So, in order to not make a complete fool of myself, I need to step up my diet, step up my training and work my butt off so I can beat my last 5k time of 44:55.
I do have some rather good news. There’s a program called “Girls On The Run”. It’s for young girls, to help build character and self esteem, through running. Lola and I are starting a chapter at her school this year. Or are going to try. We have to talk to the school first. But Lola is so excited. She can’t wait to start. She actually wants to start training now. And since I’m helping to get it up and going, if I’m interested in becoming a coach, they will train me to do so. Pretty awesome. It’ll be so good for her!
I’m still going through my sort of quarter life crisis, but I’m working through it. It’s going to take some time I guess. Have a lot of things to take care of. But hopefully, everything will turn out well in the end.