Gone too far…
Posted August 3, 2013on:
I haven’t updated in awhile. Things haven’t been going so great fitness/weight/running-wise. I’ve let things go. I’ve messed up. And I’m very upset with myself.
I weighed myself today and I can say I am truly disappointed with myself for letting it get like this. I won’t say what my exact weight is, but I’m not that far from my all time highest weight. I’m pretty pissed off at myself, actually.
My first race since Shamrock (not counting Color Me Rad) is in 20 days. I don’t know how it’s going to go. I just know I have got to be really strict with myself eating wise, MAKE MYSELF go running/walking in the morning. Just make myself work out in general.
I am just upset and angry with myself for letting it go this far. I don’t know what my problem is. I’ve lost my motivation, my fire. I just don’t know how to get it back.
It’s very frustrating…